So sometime between last night and this morning my "I'm a little bit sick" thing turned into a "wow, I can't walk a straight line" thing. Pretty disgusting.

But anyway. :] Everything has been so hectic lately, I really haven't had any time to think. I like keeping busy because then I don't have the time to feel lonely, but I hate being so busy that I can't get anything done. And since I've had no time to write in the past couple of months, my mind and heart are bursting at the seams with words that I've wanted to get out since February. I have no idea even where to start. I've felt so much since then...been through so much. I just have no idea.

I'm dreading the summer. Because that will mean school is over and I only have two weeks to fix my grades. I'm not sure that's possible. And that scares me. I've tried my hardest but my mind has been somewhere else. At least my summer will be spent mostly with my favorite teacher of all time. But I'm going to be left alone this summer. Best friend number one is moving across the country or college at the end of August, so I don't have much time left with her. Best friend number two is leaving for Germany for a month right after school gets out. And best friend number three will be gone all summer except for the last week before school starts again. My little sister has summer school, softball, and a boyfriend to occupy her time...so where does that leave me? Sitting at home, trying not to think about things I want to put behind me, basically.

My head aches.